June 30, 2009 - I finally get it

I have had a very low week with my health and Im trying to drag myself around. We had another member in the hospital this week and honestly, I had to pick myself up and drag myself there. I felt so bad and was bleeding so badly. I just really need the Lord to reach down and heal me. I was reading in my devotions in Mark 5 : 25 about the lady who touched the hem of Jesus' garment. It said that she had an "issue of blood" that flowed for years. It hit me in that moment, I firmly believe that she had Endometrosis. I could feel her desperation. For the first time I could understand her feelings so personally , even though I have read that story a million times. She too had spent all her money on relief, doctors couldnt help. My surgery was useless, so I felt her frustration.I began to cry to the Lord wishing that I too could touch His garment and this would pass from me. Then as I read on...I realized that it wasnt His hem that saved her. Becuase the verse said that he was being preessed and thronged by the crowds. Tons of people were "touching" Him. yet, nothing significant happened to them. Later, Jesus told her in verse 34 that it was her faith. I have hope. I just need more faith. I know the Lord can take this from me!